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Session 4, Week 11
I see little benefit in talking about our fears. It gives them strength, allows them to take root in the mind and hold on tight until they are all we can think about. No one benefits from that. That said, if I was to speak about my moments where the fears have won, then it would be in each and every time I have lost love.
Some of them I knew it was coming. Others it was a terrible, horrible surprise. Yet, I knew that eventually those moments would come. That doesn't make them any less terrifying when it happens. Especially in the cases when the loss was tragic and sudden, when I hadn't time to say goodbye, to tell them how much I love them. So there is a terror in that, in not having time to say goodbye and not knowing if you will ever be able to love like that again.
Thankfully, for a time being, I do not know that terror, and hopefully won't again for a very long time.
Some of them I knew it was coming. Others it was a terrible, horrible surprise. Yet, I knew that eventually those moments would come. That doesn't make them any less terrifying when it happens. Especially in the cases when the loss was tragic and sudden, when I hadn't time to say goodbye, to tell them how much I love them. So there is a terror in that, in not having time to say goodbye and not knowing if you will ever be able to love like that again.
Thankfully, for a time being, I do not know that terror, and hopefully won't again for a very long time.